Apples are for eatin' and snakes are for hissin'

It's been a rough time for me lately. And now this...

After catching my friend red handed, I told my little friendly parasite that he may not stay with me for a month to get back on his feet today. It was really really hard for me to do. Why do I let people walk all over me and betray me... and the feel bad for them and the situation they're in? I deserve so much better! How could he read my mail, get caught doing it and actually expect me to put him and his cat up for a month? I should be pissed! Instead I feel like a harsh, unforgiving person for putting my foot down. I feel like this is a lesson that I really need to work on more. If I'm going into ministry, I'm going to need to learn how to say no firmly and guilt-free.

And I'm going to need better friends.

I spoke with another friend of mine today about the situation and he really encouraged me to follow my instincts about the situation. He was so supportive and comforting that I started to wonder why I don't talk with him more often. That's the kind of friendship I should nurture!

Down in NJ, my sister is apparently going through a minor breakdown. She's coming to terms with being 20 and choosing her life path. It wasn't very long ago that I faced those same demons. I hope that she stays strong and continues becoming the beautiful young woman that I know she is.

I'm sending my mom her b-day gift in the mail tomorrow. I decorated the whole box in magazine collage. The mail carrier will get a kick out of it! I love that she told me exactly what she wanted this year... it's great to have the guesswork removed!


I'm working on a giant 10-15 page essay for grad school applications. It's all about my spirituality and religious life. It's a fascinating project, but I've found it very draining. I have so much to say, but I'm uncomfortable not knowing the people reading it. It feels so strange to be getting so personal with strangers. This journal may help me with that feeling, but I keep pretending that no one can read this.

So far, I'm sure nobody is!

:-)

Keep on keeping on...